I screwed it up. I scared the shit out of her. I know it was of the wrong time to ask, but I couldn't help it. I've let my emotions get the better of me this time. Sigh. What the hell is wrong with me?! I love you. I can surely say that. It's a painful process to start all over again, but I'm enduring. Hopefully, you will have a change of mind and heart.

Sigh. I went drinking last night with my classmates. Drank quite alot. Now I'm waiting for her to get up. So that she could go collect her things. Forgetting someone is hard, I tried. But I can't. All the times we shared and all the things we did are all engraved in my mind and heart. I tried, but it's the love for you that pulls me back. Sigh. I hope things would be better soon.

I love you.